blank slate the denial of human nature

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test of neumerolîgy brainwave function

हाउ मच इस नेवर enuff

will your purple pill
offerrin me a pack of american spirits
that just came out of prison
spit it out
ya ruined any credibility i have as a human beeing annyway
so u wanna tell theh world im
??????
but you dont dare even look me in the eye
you prey on my weakness
take my friends
my positivity will grow
you cant stop it
your only
throwing flames
on jet fuel
good thing ive not a violent nature

when people know what really happenned and they may never
they may always see me as skitzophrenic
and you may be responsible for getting away with a mans sanity
and beeing able to laugh over a latte
but what does that make u
u think cuz im pissed u win
u think ur lies ur gossip cloud your whispers in the night
are in my head
u know I know
but u stay anonymous
track every move
love to wrapp all of mankinds darkside onto me. and expect me to not fight for my good name....
Im not in the dept of karma
luckily neither are you
so
u can make me shake
u can fake a fools cage
and expect him to go crazy

lucky my momma raised me well
lucky
but i have to stand up for myself

even if in this lifetime noone ever finds out the truth and im wheeleled
into an institution.
is this the story of your 30's
some sick addiction of labeling someone based on based on based on???????????????
hmmm cuz im missing it
i respect a junkie on the street selling his body to get high more than i do one who can laugh at anothers inability to control what they cant see, so hide in the courners your voices are heard
and they may affect me
but is that who ya wanna be
u dont wanna know me just who u want me to be\
and im not
cuz.
period
so follow whisper try to create a madman
youll be unnseccesful

just the crookedness behind your ways
just the sickness of your gaze
just throwin a mouse in a maze
to bang his fragile head
are we all adults
do we really want the truth

than im all ears
im done
beein who YOU want me to be
ill never feel auckward in my self
I know You see sickness
I see it too
,,,,
when does a man hide, behind his freinds
beleive what hes told

than violate a mind/body in the deepest most life scarring way and think hes not done
even perhaps worse than the man he is out to get.
rape me of my friends
strip me of all thats holey
Ill rise from the dust someday
and know what ill never do to a man
no matter what I think I know
day after day life turns grey like the skin on a dying man
and night after night we pretend its all right
you have grown older
and i have grown colder and nothing is very much fun
annymore
but i can feel



dont be so frightened this is just a passing phase one of my bad dayz
would u like somethin to eat
would ya
would ya like to slip between the sheets and cotemplate some violent freeway
would ya like to see me try.

oooohhhhhhh babe mothers gonna help build the wall




goodbye
cruel world im leavin u today
goodbye
goodbye
goodbye



or somethin like that

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330 am awake dreaming of a
body inhabiting mine
outside the air
creates a faucet of nose
when the newspaper machine
8 my dimes
i fealt just fine
instead of dread in my head
intead of living dead
no matter how much pressure builds i will be myself
at all costs
at all costs i will learn and change and grow
and defend my integrity
at every turn i will exclaim i am brien
a good man
a man of penniless pockets
but a man with honesty
a man that picks up ogarbage
a man that envisions peace and good will
to all around me
mostly those that go against me
i wishj them well on their journey
and if their confused who iam
it is their mind
i can walk down the street with
a peace of mind
because im kind
i may get hit
i may be spat upon
but i will stay humble
I will defend my cause
i will give to the homeless when i can
i will be the man i was born to be
i will hold on to hope
i will carry on until the sun hits the sea
i will carry on until the birds talk to me
i will carry on free
of mind
free of spirit
i will solve problems of miscommunications
i will be sarcastic
i will try to fly with the rest
but if im better alone
i will stay alone
and learn about my self
i will paint i will get angry
i will confuse others with my actions
but noone can say a bad word about me
oh they can say
say anything
but it takes not away from my flight
i soar over them, i see them wake
i see them bake
i see them point
i see them.
and that is ok
i am a niche above and proud to say
i find knowledge in beeing who i am ..i will not try to dillute myself
i will not pretend not to know what i know
so those tricksters are out
of the covers
their blankets are ripped off
as my eyes penetrate throuhg you
its no matter if a man wants to trick nme
as i will see it
i will have my opinions
and loose them just as quickly
anyone can poke me,
will not blow
as i am in conrtrol.
back at the helm.
found a dollar bill
and a muse
psychic sex
yhan got abused
by a dr
cuz i was in need.
bad things happen in 6's
to get me on the path
i gotkicked down a flight of stairs
i tripped onto my destiny
cracke my tail bone
but i woke up
exchanged energy with muse
he came to say hi
grabbed a box and banged it
it contained my meds he goy my attention

today i picked up a ciggarette but

just a reaction

came outside

normally

i bum them

today

i was offerred a full box of american spirits.
spirits hmm
came out
the local art school
xcuse me do u smoke american spirits
most days im snipin them from a bag and rolling dust
for nicotine
most dayz i have no gas
i was given 5 dollars worth
most dayz i wake up down
today
i woke up
and
the world responded
yesterday id be content to let things be
today i grew some ballss
the world responds
my electricity aloud others in
today
a guy says "i just got out of prison"
would you like these aamerican spirits,

most would rather die than give one up
most do die if they dont

im sad to here kilbeys
madd
'or sad'
Hope he knows
we are there
for him
even in his sollice
we care
more than he
perhaps
ud have to Ask him
i dont like my drs that
push pills
or pharmacies that sell them
i dont like
beeing told im this
when im that.
every day i see a girl i care about
every day im not sure
if its really her

voices came in my bed
voices left me alone
professionals
cast me out on a plank
cause of a political mistake
my integrity is
dont question it
ill bite ur head off
dont treat special people
w/o care
dont think
u are the air
anything u can do can be wrong
when noone looks at u
i gotta go but i got so much more
i gotta go someone opened the dooor
i feel
do u get my appeal
i own my thoughts
i own my feet
down to my toe
step on me
ill react
this ones got life
]dr

DAD

DAD
My Father by Mark Merrill