blank slate the denial of human nature

hacked & whacked

link to portland most wanted
there's a photo of a guy cashing a check

strange as it resembles me.....
what would u do if u knew u were
beeing watched...ur car door found popped open.....
same cars same people
who could u tell
who'd believe u
beyond doubt

& if u do tell someone
it 'd ...they write u off
how alone
too many coincidences

what could it be
who said what
that snowballed
..........what mistake has cost
such vulnerbility
privacy.....
don't take it for granted
only if it happenned to u
howd u feel.....when ur evidence....doesnt cut it...
and ur seen as just skitzo.....
don't get caught in the eye of technology....
one against many.
a fight u cannnot wiñ
on any level
kee¶p it inside
is worse
many forces
unseen
awareness
sux
will I ever escape
or be given respect to my
ability to feel this ..electric sense
sixth sense
some days I can try to convince myself ...it s a dream till that same white van sits outside



for the ones who don't entertain my hell...& write it off as my irreaponsibility....you can not know. no matter how prophetic u may be..you deny ones trauma
if I hear why would someone spwnd so much energy on me again....noone knows.....its happennig...more than I know...
ignoring makes it calmer....but their voices react to my life......
quiet...listening.......i found a spot that had a wire embedded....and a metal small device....the wood is newer.....both neighbors moved.....
noises above.....empty apt.
I found many survelliance devices.....chased someone.....
hear 2 talking .......
never leave sat sun fri......alqays there and listening.......
I had to go I felalt sick...
they see me mastwrbate shower...i know there watching...i sense it
how do I paint or relax.
I left to a hotel
I am going to the pd...if in the am the devices arégone

above me
and both sides.

I feel their precense
have some faith in my judgment
think the worst no think its my doing no........talk to me
you'll know and I need help...but u doubt...
weird shit happwnns
when I need I u u dissapwae

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

...you poor suffering soul...do what you have to do to find peace...
love always...

DAD

DAD
My Father by Mark Merrill