WHAT IS MEMORY
that should drive a wedge
between?
when ones soul is on the line
what is kindness
shown
if you cannot show it
what is love
if not helping the ones u love
love is not closing the door'
love is not picking and choosing
who is deserving and who is not
love is not rhymes and rittles
love is to see all as equally
I went to videoport and purchased The Churchs album w/ the paintings on the cover,,
very nice.....
finally I have something to pop in for those long drives when my nerves are shaking off teh shelf..
lateley, my dreams have taken me to other cities, I remember seeing NYC from the ocean,,,getting close I came upon the NYC girl, she looked like bjork in her factory dress....than I was a waiter for a dictator, all the food was prepared upstairs
I was in a different Time, I ordered teas for the jolly boys and girls,,,but if i stepped out of line I would be killed,,,a book danced on the shelf, it said i wrote about this dictator..this dream really has me ..I mean the feeling..the clothes...the grated cheese, and the rice potato and carrot stew.......
Ive always had the MOST graphic dreams
But this is the first where It fealt like another life, perhaps a glimpse
I saw women all in towels beeing herded into mud rooms......
than there was the train...I derailed and the angry mob.....
I screamed 'we escaped and lived" the crowd cheered, we walked through them, shakiing each ones hand until i was lead outside the train onto a thin rail with a wire to hold onto,,,i was given three attempts to catch a ball,,,I missed so I had to dive into the water...it was rusty, the current swept me, i tried to fight it. someone through me a hose,,,i grabbed on, it spewed out white foam......
so aside from these dreams
Ive skirted around my landlord
He cant figure out where my money is coming from
and I dont feel obligated to tell him,,,,,
all of a sudden im poor, than I have a new car
and clothes.......ud think a 65yr old man wouldnt treat someone souley on there income...But tis true.....little money and im his best tenant....
God forbid Im out of work, god forbid
I cant work
that puts me in his "welfare" "bum" Lazy category
....
how many times is it going to take
hes rented to a pimp
...which made life interesting for a bit, a drug dealer, drunks
all because there straights...yes im using that word now..
I disguised myself as a str8 the day I moved....but his wife noticed my chained wallet....and had a feeling I may bot be the typical yupeee...well she was right,
the hat came off the hair came down, and they got themselves,,what they consider a freak.......
whenever he gives me shit I just bring up the Prostitution ring.....
cold here.......NE all messed up
same reason whales are beaching
and only a remote villager can
save his people...from natures
killas'''
too bad we arent as strong as the cockroach
livin our cozy lifes in th eus of A
when the bombs come here
than perhaps all these
blindfloded
anti-christ suckers 'll wake up
I mean who votes for a president whos fav movie is waynes world
I mean thats cool and all and it shows his absolute ignorance
but ....hey does the right..or the christians in church ever
wonder why,,GW has pitted us against all these easten foreighn
countries, but threatens to veto,,,if our ports are not in foreighn control
man ...if i were to be brave Id say his agenda
besides stay the course
is control The world
like that teacher
comparring GBW to Hitler
least Hitler didnt hide
and sneak attack villages
he pointed a gun at your head
he was proud to be a killa
GBW is a cartoon
behind a panel of
buttons--that take out
children
his logic is not there
pride is his only weapon
left --right......what planet does he come from???
anti-christ
hes got the criteria
well kiddos, soon ill be live w/ ya
instead of at this library.....
mac or windows
yes i wanna make a movie
so maybe ill go mac
annyone spare a 1000$
I promise it'll go toward
anylyzing the insects...
time to go back to my den
put in the new documentry on attack of falluja.....
need
sunlight
pot
atoes
people
positivev vibes
perhaps a moped
w/ a short punked girl
need to breathe the air
coming off north beach
this town
stagnant
early morning walks
stale beer
and
a single shoe
thats it..
u wanna
bounce from club to club
come to the old port
other than that
we dont want to hear ya
we have the boston attitude
pretentious artsy
best time is when they all pass out
and i can talk w. the girl who
fell off the peir
listen to to lighthouse fog
hornes
and wonder
if she screamed
and if she sufferred
by the time i get out
i hear him on my trail
the cruiser goes by
radios up ahead
hes got a spurs hat on
Thats the one
hear the footsteps
dont look back
find a movie
and im at home
inside the brand new seats
2 hours my mind can be free
from worry
focus
breathe
its all ok
.....
but the clock is tickin
aint nobody steppin in
to reward....my needless sufferring
gotta work
but at whatwhere
how do i start
....ran out of numbers
alone
with the
indian DR
whos too liberal.......
There all doing "it"
guess "it" cant just happen
w/o motivation
w/o a bit of recognition.....
too many peices
to put to gether
think ill watch our soldiers
kill,,maybe that'll cheer me up
i mean inspire me
and maybe hell call
but I may have scared him off.....
bye bye
very nice.....
finally I have something to pop in for those long drives when my nerves are shaking off teh shelf..
lateley, my dreams have taken me to other cities, I remember seeing NYC from the ocean,,,getting close I came upon the NYC girl, she looked like bjork in her factory dress....than I was a waiter for a dictator, all the food was prepared upstairs
I was in a different Time, I ordered teas for the jolly boys and girls,,,but if i stepped out of line I would be killed,,,a book danced on the shelf, it said i wrote about this dictator..this dream really has me ..I mean the feeling..the clothes...the grated cheese, and the rice potato and carrot stew.......
Ive always had the MOST graphic dreams
But this is the first where It fealt like another life, perhaps a glimpse
I saw women all in towels beeing herded into mud rooms......
than there was the train...I derailed and the angry mob.....
I screamed 'we escaped and lived" the crowd cheered, we walked through them, shakiing each ones hand until i was lead outside the train onto a thin rail with a wire to hold onto,,,i was given three attempts to catch a ball,,,I missed so I had to dive into the water...it was rusty, the current swept me, i tried to fight it. someone through me a hose,,,i grabbed on, it spewed out white foam......
so aside from these dreams
Ive skirted around my landlord
He cant figure out where my money is coming from
and I dont feel obligated to tell him,,,,,
all of a sudden im poor, than I have a new car
and clothes.......ud think a 65yr old man wouldnt treat someone souley on there income...But tis true.....little money and im his best tenant....
God forbid Im out of work, god forbid
I cant work
that puts me in his "welfare" "bum" Lazy category
....
how many times is it going to take
hes rented to a pimp
...which made life interesting for a bit, a drug dealer, drunks
all because there straights...yes im using that word now..
I disguised myself as a str8 the day I moved....but his wife noticed my chained wallet....and had a feeling I may bot be the typical yupeee...well she was right,
the hat came off the hair came down, and they got themselves,,what they consider a freak.......
whenever he gives me shit I just bring up the Prostitution ring.....
cold here.......NE all messed up
same reason whales are beaching
and only a remote villager can
save his people...from natures
killas'''
too bad we arent as strong as the cockroach
livin our cozy lifes in th eus of A
when the bombs come here
than perhaps all these
blindfloded
anti-christ suckers 'll wake up
I mean who votes for a president whos fav movie is waynes world
I mean thats cool and all and it shows his absolute ignorance
but ....hey does the right..or the christians in church ever
wonder why,,GW has pitted us against all these easten foreighn
countries, but threatens to veto,,,if our ports are not in foreighn control
man ...if i were to be brave Id say his agenda
besides stay the course
is control The world
like that teacher
comparring GBW to Hitler
least Hitler didnt hide
and sneak attack villages
he pointed a gun at your head
he was proud to be a killa
GBW is a cartoon
behind a panel of
buttons--that take out
children
his logic is not there
pride is his only weapon
left --right......what planet does he come from???
anti-christ
hes got the criteria
well kiddos, soon ill be live w/ ya
instead of at this library.....
mac or windows
yes i wanna make a movie
so maybe ill go mac
annyone spare a 1000$
I promise it'll go toward
anylyzing the insects...
time to go back to my den
put in the new documentry on attack of falluja.....
need
sunlight
pot
atoes
people
positivev vibes
perhaps a moped
w/ a short punked girl
need to breathe the air
coming off north beach
this town
stagnant
early morning walks
stale beer
and
a single shoe
thats it..
u wanna
bounce from club to club
come to the old port
other than that
we dont want to hear ya
we have the boston attitude
pretentious artsy
best time is when they all pass out
and i can talk w. the girl who
fell off the peir
listen to to lighthouse fog
hornes
and wonder
if she screamed
and if she sufferred
by the time i get out
i hear him on my trail
the cruiser goes by
radios up ahead
hes got a spurs hat on
Thats the one
hear the footsteps
dont look back
find a movie
and im at home
inside the brand new seats
2 hours my mind can be free
from worry
focus
breathe
its all ok
.....
but the clock is tickin
aint nobody steppin in
to reward....my needless sufferring
gotta work
but at whatwhere
how do i start
....ran out of numbers
alone
with the
indian DR
whos too liberal.......
There all doing "it"
guess "it" cant just happen
w/o motivation
w/o a bit of recognition.....
too many peices
to put to gether
think ill watch our soldiers
kill,,maybe that'll cheer me up
i mean inspire me
and maybe hell call
but I may have scared him off.....
bye bye
wonder
I
I wonder who these people are surfing bloggs to leave negative comments
there is a way to ..I man what the hell are they doing there, if they cant get over ones word usage......its all funny but what one man started is turning into a late night chatroom, where yoiu got straights yeah f;;ing str8's ganging up on ....
and not even knowng what one is thinking ..but always beeing loud.....how can annyone
try to edit someones thoughts or critisize them....a man does an incredibly self-lessact.....one in which he does not have to,,,,says good mourning.......is strong enough to have the balls to face himmself...gives fans who hve this intrinsic need
to devour anything close to 'fame'
this is just a blogg
not a forum
on mankind
if someone is a bit too wise
and in their own ppersonal thoughts
gets a rise out of ya
than Id say
your a borring person...
if your offended be offended
soak it in.....feel it,,because you are it......
sick of tip toing
around
scared ofwhaT "THEY " WILL THINK
THIS is not for you
im not here to impress
or undress
your desires
im not trying to get my thoughts published
some are so so careful...
oh I need toi be looked at
as a true artist
i must only show what I think
One whom influences me
something that they will
attractttt...
does it matter
really what is it?
i hear lots of people
talk
talk about how addiction is a disease
but god forbid that disease
isseen
we must put it in the closet
shut the door
we only pay homage to the light
we've forgotten john lennons
words...
we are all to comfortable to forget
where we came from...when things
are cozy...
ill never be able to explain it
its vibes
sensations
there either there or there not
its like priviliged
you have the aproval stamp..let him in the door
but that one...he doesnt look right to me
sound familiar
that one looks jwish, thatpones
a ------ who let all that riff raff into the room.
isnt it nice to burn our plastic edges
close our minds to a theory
a man
is in the hospital
he needs
care
he'staken in
I mean he needs noone to feed him
he just needs air
and aplace around 'family'?
a place not to be judged
but his past follows him like a vulture
u cant predict
when the vulture will dive....
u see my heart
dictates...
if I had the choice between
making a huge difference in someones life(not living for them)
and.....a paranoia that....My life will be somehow
touched...I may not sleep as good at night.....i guess its luck
some of us get
other souls to nurture
our spirituality
some of us are left out in the cold
left...left...
so ill take a right
I dont need
guess i got confused
didnt mean to spoil your
tea
someday
the 'perfect '
ideal
will
knock
on your
door
inside a dream.
I wonder who these people are surfing bloggs to leave negative comments
there is a way to ..I man what the hell are they doing there, if they cant get over ones word usage......its all funny but what one man started is turning into a late night chatroom, where yoiu got straights yeah f;;ing str8's ganging up on ....
and not even knowng what one is thinking ..but always beeing loud.....how can annyone
try to edit someones thoughts or critisize them....a man does an incredibly self-lessact.....one in which he does not have to,,,,says good mourning.......is strong enough to have the balls to face himmself...gives fans who hve this intrinsic need
to devour anything close to 'fame'
this is just a blogg
not a forum
on mankind
if someone is a bit too wise
and in their own ppersonal thoughts
gets a rise out of ya
than Id say
your a borring person...
if your offended be offended
soak it in.....feel it,,because you are it......
sick of tip toing
around
scared ofwhaT "THEY " WILL THINK
THIS is not for you
im not here to impress
or undress
your desires
im not trying to get my thoughts published
some are so so careful...
oh I need toi be looked at
as a true artist
i must only show what I think
One whom influences me
something that they will
attractttt...
does it matter
really what is it?
i hear lots of people
talk
talk about how addiction is a disease
but god forbid that disease
isseen
we must put it in the closet
shut the door
we only pay homage to the light
we've forgotten john lennons
words...
we are all to comfortable to forget
where we came from...when things
are cozy...
ill never be able to explain it
its vibes
sensations
there either there or there not
its like priviliged
you have the aproval stamp..let him in the door
but that one...he doesnt look right to me
sound familiar
that one looks jwish, thatpones
a ------ who let all that riff raff into the room.
isnt it nice to burn our plastic edges
close our minds to a theory
a man
is in the hospital
he needs
care
he'staken in
I mean he needs noone to feed him
he just needs air
and aplace around 'family'?
a place not to be judged
but his past follows him like a vulture
u cant predict
when the vulture will dive....
u see my heart
dictates...
if I had the choice between
making a huge difference in someones life(not living for them)
and.....a paranoia that....My life will be somehow
touched...I may not sleep as good at night.....i guess its luck
some of us get
other souls to nurture
our spirituality
some of us are left out in the cold
left...left...
so ill take a right
I dont need
guess i got confused
didnt mean to spoil your
tea
someday
the 'perfect '
ideal
will
knock
on your
door
inside a dream.
15 ay..thanx for the compliment,
ahh well
life is a series of troubles
maybe your evolved enough, to realize there cant be
a better if there isnt a worse
im not writting out of spite
or even writting out of anger
it all just is
why must we all
try to put reason behind it
or connect it to an answer
oh he must be 15
o maybe his life will get better
shit , i dont know you
you obviouseley dont care to know me
so if ya cant deal with real shit
go onto a bouncy happy
silver spooned
surferr..Im all that blogg
cuzz this aint it
i dont have to be happy
i dont have to be sad
i dont have to be anything for
you, BRAD
---------------------------
oh i found that
fancy coffee shop
there are no questions
dont connect anything
its all all right
life is a series of troubles
maybe your evolved enough, to realize there cant be
a better if there isnt a worse
im not writting out of spite
or even writting out of anger
it all just is
why must we all
try to put reason behind it
or connect it to an answer
oh he must be 15
o maybe his life will get better
shit , i dont know you
you obviouseley dont care to know me
so if ya cant deal with real shit
go onto a bouncy happy
silver spooned
surferr..Im all that blogg
cuzz this aint it
i dont have to be happy
i dont have to be sad
i dont have to be anything for
you, BRAD
---------------------------
oh i found that
fancy coffee shop
there are no questions
dont connect anything
its all all right
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My Father by Mark Merrill