तो क्नोव नो व्हाट इ मैं

take a a breath. oxygen....rush to my lungs...electric thought thru g kn--- what
whole lottA skitzo feen iac russian to everyone else...
next thing i know Im in a jail a jail cell..pacin down the halls at 4am.....too scared to sit to anxious to not to *((&(&*(*(() to tell the curious fellow you so yawned at.
all the fu's i got...as who i know....ahh what a dream that was


in my bed
i insulted a soldier
in my bed i couldnt
move
in my bed i moved alot

in my bed or in the hall
what to say
do i stay
do i go
whos who
do i walk to the left
or to the right
perspective
is ????
ahh so much i havent a clue
do u>
all o NO
is NO
is the answer


appreciation
no starvation
some lessons
re learned
respect
i must work on

from the beginning
so superficial
i seemed
games were i playing?
were i lying>?
when i told the truth.
is my truth
like your coccoon
not as smart
as my arse
brain
y one
i suppose i hadnt been briefed
no thing cAn prepare
for how a bit of
fear wrapped inside paranoia
mixed with a greater paranoia
As a virus
mutates
as a bug
hidden in the wall
or crawls thru a bathroom stall
can be properly crushed...

healing is so possiblle.
this fear will go....
as it once was without
within me is me.
noone else
it seems
.

prayed id be back to who i know
feel it comin on slow
hope is strong
ger than the wind
i must not
let the animals overtake

mushrooms grow
thats ok
im still here another day
u cant write
but i still can
i heard it all in my head

life is deaR
DEAR TO ME
you are not
who i seem to be
confused
as i am good inside
better than most
i see filth all around
men treating woman
like toast

i hate womanizing
demorilizing
or racist
or any beeing that
is as a vulture
like that friggin bug
i am not
nor will i be

past is past
alot i wish never be
but now is all i have
and my heAD IS STILL
spinning
my body
still not
mind still not
trust is earned
yeah
noone srewed up
virus is out
of your mind
if you think
its in me or im thinking of that
breathe
i kn--w u got
i just wanna land